Euglogy of a Sunflower
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community gardening, defeat, guerilla gardening, idiots, sadness, sunflowers
Sep 22, 2009 07:43 pm
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Dwaine and I had been in the lot for about two hours now. My son was crying, my daughters digging random holes to seek out slimy earthworms. I was tired but we needed to plant the sunflowers. I couldn’t wait to see those big beautiful Mammoth Russians. I had already visualized them standing tall, proud, a mirage of beauty in a barren lot.
That didn’t happen, the sparrows ate them all.
About two months ago, Maria Clark of the
Hunts Point Express pointed out to me what I thought was a weed. It wasn’t. It was a badly trampled sunflower seedling. It was about 6 inches high, no flower yet but there it was, nonetheless. I instantly felt connected to that plant. I referred to her as
“my sunflower”, I was proud of her. Through
dog poop, urine and under foot she was
determined to grow.
She was a brazen broad, my type of plant.
As of two weeks ago she was about 3 feet high her flower was just about to come in.
None of her comrades made it but here she stood, alone, resilient and full of dignity. I watched her from across the street some days. Last week I noticed she wasn’t there. Maybe it was the sun in my eyes but I couldn’t see her. I hastily crossed the street, car whizzing by beeping at me to get out the way. She was gone. I searched the ground, my face feeling flushed and then I saw it. Her stump sticking up out from the ground and there she was next to it. Tattered, depressed into the shit filled soil, she was clearly the victim of a lawnmower. The Parks Dept came to do their “job” and in the interim killed what would have grown into a beautiful, regal flower. Mowed down before she reached her potential. How cliché but how fitting for this hood.
Before I realized it, I was crying. I was angry. I felt personally assaulted. This was indicative of more than just a mishap; this was the story of many of the inhabitants of this community and communities like it. Mowed down before their potential. Outliving their peers, striving and trying to succeed despite all of the many obstacles before them and when they think they have made it something bigger than them, some structure or system or institution pulls the rug out and sometimes they just can’t be fixed.
Shit maybe I am taking all of this way too personal. Maybe it was just a damn sunflower that I planted, illegally mind you but I wanted something beautiful for my kids and my neighbor’s kids to look at.
I mean Goddamnit I am trying and the Parks Dept stupid ass lawnmower ruined it.
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September 23, 2009 - 8:37am